Where to go from here

What do you do when everything seems to be so overwhelming I mean there's only one thing that anyone can do, but that's not my style. So we get what we have here, a problem that has been magnified by other problems and other problems seem worse because of all the problems.

I don't know, sometimes we need to reflect about who we are and who we want to be. When does the reflection start to be? When does all the bullshit crumble away and we get to start again just being?

So I looked and what did I see, I saw a man who wanted something more, who wanted to make everyone happy, who wanted to be loved but didn't know how to love himself let alone someone else. With some time I hope I can be the man I once was, the man that I was proud of all the time, not just some of the time. We all hide ourselves so well from each other, making sure we don't get hurt or that we don't hurt anyone else but pain is a part of life and we have to feel it to know about the good things right. Anyways I think I will be ok, like a smoldering fire, from the ash grows a strong and proud tree.