Today I started a long road, one that many of us never travel on. I feel that I have lost a little bit of myself over that last few yrs and today I stood to take that back.
We as humans have trouble talking about ourselves sometimes, trouble deciding what it is that is bothering us. So today I went to my first day of Anger Management training, I foresee this having a great impact on how I deal with everyday problems that just seem to get under my skin.
I think I have always had a problem with dealing with my anger, you know I'm like most I hold it in until I cant hold it any longer. I am not the explosive type, I am more of a self destructive type. I let it build up to the point where I want to hurt to feel alive but I let it effect what I do in life. I let it tell me to drink to spend money to feel better to detach myself from others to shut myself off from the world. I am a writer and a musician and its the painful cycle of good music coming out when it hurts the most. I dont know, I like this blogging thing it lets me talk about myself and if someone reads it than cool if not I still get to tell someone (the internet) but its working for me.
So I just wanted to hit on the fact that I feel good, I feel like mental health is coming and I feel that I will be a better person in the end.
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